The Joy In My Pain

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So last week I launched my podcast The Elephant In The Room – Navigating A Lifetime Of Emotion, the podcast that helps you manage your emotions. I have taken the lessons learnt during the 35 years I spent in depression, plus the last 9 years of overcoming depression and put it into the podcast to help and inspire others. I can’t believe I actually fulfilled one of the things on my visions board, and to think I only put it on there in April! Who would have thought I would be producing fruit from a vision board I had to pussssssh through mentally and emotionally to produce. That was one of my hardest battles with depression, keeping my dreams and… 

As the launch date for my new podcast approaches, I share why stepping away from my cakes business was the right decision for this present time

What’s Going On?

I’m going out on a limb here and really exposing myself, but I have just realised for the past number of years, I have been living in what some call organised chaos. I’m not sure how I thrived and how I stayed sane, but having stepped away for a while from my cake business, Jemz Cake Box I realise just how much more my life needs simplifying. My ability to work under stress stems from my 35 year battle with depression. I used work as a way of escape as well as a way to measure my worth. As a child, I used work to gain my parent’s love and affections. As an adult, I used it to gain my… 

Decisions, Decisions

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Have you ever made a decision, then found yourself going back on it just a tiny bit, all the while convincing yourself that somehow a tiny bit is not quite the same as going back on it all together? Yes? Then you will understand the liberation and apprehension of finally making a very important decision and sticking to it! Ifread my blog The Deciding Factor back in April, you will know that after spending some much-needed quality time with God I felt He had given me an answer that was as clear as crystal to a dilemma I had been toying with for a while and was all set follow His lead until, I paused to ponder. Going Back On… 

Inside Out – Show Me What I’m Made Of

I’ve been trying to write this blog for over 3 weeks now, and its delay has not been down to procrastination, but rather the universe’s way of saying “Ok, let’s see what you’re made of” The past 3 weeks have been trying, tiring and irritating. In the past I allowed work and other so-called pressing engagements to get in the way of my goals. How and why? Because my goals were merely dreams I spoke about but did nothing about. Today, my dreams are no longer thoughtful daydreams that drift in and out of my mind, they are real-life goals with blood, sweat, mental drive, motivation and a whole load of refusing to give up or give in attached them.… 

It’s Working For Me

It’s working! After years of hoping, praying, and in more recent years putting in the work, my brain is finally working for me and not against me. For the past six months, I have relentlessly been working on overcoming some major stumbling blocks of my mindset in relation to motivation, focused vision, and success. This meant while others were relaxing and playing it safe, I was working overtime around the clock to divide, conquer, and win it is so encouraging to finally see the first cropped harvest of my labour. Vision My first major breakthrough came just over a month ago when I was able to finally complete my vision board. Something I had previously struggled with. Each time I… 

2020 Vison

In the days that led to the close of 2019, almost every post of social media was filled with people declaring that 2020, was the going to be their year. We were entering a new decade, a new year. For me, it was a struggle trying to define my 2020 vision and goals, but that struggle caused me to find the one goal I needed to focus on for this year. From that one goal, all my other pursuits would fall into place. Commitment to the process would spur commitment to my vision. Without the former, there would be no later. New Mindset New Goals I came into 2020 with one aim and one aim only, to change more areas… 

Strength In Isolation

A lot can happen in seven weeks, a lot has happened in seven weeks. I lost all sense of the days, weeks, and months when we went into lockdown. While many said it seemed as if all their days were rolling into one, I took very little notice, so I was shocked, and I mean SHOCKED when I found out I had been off work for 49 days. Where did the time go? I came into this COVID 19 lockdown with revelation, a vision, and a goal. I had a goal but hadn’t taken into account the impact of the mental backlash being home alone with limited access to the outside world would have on me. For the first few… 

Get Up, Get Dressed, You’re On Camera!

Life is like a screenplay, every day we get up and perform. Some give Oscar-winning performances, yet still await the prize. Some make little effort and walk off with the pot of gold. Bult most of us have to work, hard, very hard in order to make progress of some sort. I am one of those who have to work hard, extremely hard. In the past, my fight was made harder because I said one thing in my heart, another in my head, and done something completely different with my time. I now work towards linning all aspects up so they are working in perfect harmony. I would love to write a blog suggesting I’ve fully conquered that side of… 

I Am Not Depressed!

I want you to repeat it loud until you hear yourself saying it and it resignates, “I Am Not Depressed! You are not depressed, you just need to focus! Just because you are feeling low does not mean you are depressed, you are probably feeling discouraged and given the present season, that is understandable. You are probably doing a great job given what you ate going through, but wish you were doing better. I am now in week four of isolation and I’ve lost count of the numerous emotions I’ve gone through in such a short time. Because of my past history with mental health, my challenges have been up and down. What worked yesterday doesn’t work today, what made…